I DONT WANT to BE GAY!!!!?

wow.. i have no clue what to do.. i am 17 and, i have a problem. when i am online i search for gay and get off to it, BUT I DONT WANT TO!! i cood never see mmyself holding hands with a guy or be boyfriends its just the ual part, i to gay ..i can look at girls and say they are hot, i just dont get off to them. the only other gay thing i find myself doing is looking at guys bulges when they are wearing sweatpants or something.. i know people say gay is choice BUT IM TRYING TO GET OUT OF IT... I CANT! dont want to start a debate or anyhting but IMO gay is a sin and I KNOW THAT I WILL GO TO HELL IF I KEEP ON!! i want to have a wife and kids... WHAT DO I DO!?! like i said its just the ual part that i think of guys (when i masterbait) but i dont walk around saying stuff like "oo hes cute" and stuff like that... AHHH! i really dont know what to do.. i have even prayed about it.. please help me.