Where to find happiness?

It is really hard to get through dark periods like this. I am glad that you feel that suicide is not the answer. What is the answer? I don't know. Some people find that antidepressants work for them. Some people find that counselling works. Music really works the best for me. I put it on really loud and scream out the songs, especially the sad ones. This usually makes me cry and crying is suposed to release endorphins which make you happy. It obviously doesnt fix the problem, but it does help me temporarily. I'm sorry for your losses and I"m sorry for your saddness. I hope you find your "happy" soon.